So I had a bottle of wine last night and fell asleep before I did this.

Yes, I know, I should probably start the count again.

Anyway heres to yesterday

1. My ability to get ready super fucking fast. I woke up at 8.23 and realised i had a meeting across campus at 8.30. I got ready and ran so fast (by ran I mean jogged and then panted). Got there at 8.33. It was good because I regret being paranoid that I wouldn't remembered as being pretty if I hadn't of spent time on it every morning and it reminded me that spending time on my appearance in the morning isn't me. Isn't who I am. Yay for finding me again.

2. Trudi being there for me yesterday morning. I got a phone call and it threw a huge curve ball to my day leaving me in tears for the whole morning basically. I'm grateful that Trudi sat with me. It was nice to not have to speak but just to have company.

3. Conversations with non-design people. It's really lovely to be talking about things not to do with my day. Things like other peoples jobs and Tezuko which was an awesome play. So so cool.

My mother cares about me a whole lot. She really does try to do right by me and in a manner that I would respect. I'm glad we are communicating now. I'm glad that she rang me and told me what she had done. I respect the honesty and that she knew I wouldn't have approved of her sending that email but she wanted to do it and thats fine because she rang me and told me that she had. I respect that she told me, even though i'm unpredictable and she would have had no idea how I was going to react. She didn't email me, she rang me. And yeah I was really hurt and I cried all morning but I'm not angry at her at all, not even bitter it just made me really sad. My relationship with my mother is stronger than it used to be. This is really lovely. If I am to take anything from this I am grateful for that. And knowing that my mother understands how I feel and the position that I'm in and doesn't judge me for it. It's nice to know that if things did go back she would support me (which wouldn't be right but in a strong way is still what I want).

Achieved: Got up super fast, had a meeting, went to breakfast with amy, moan, eunice and emily which was a nice surprise to see her. Went to Sophies 21st dinner. Remembered it was Matthews 7th birthday so I gave him a ring. Drank beers and ate cheese bread and hummus on turdis deck with friends, drank red wine again.

I'll txt my mother about yesterday today.