Good people do bad things, that doesn't make them bad people

But good people also do fucking awesome things and it makes me go fuck yeah I need more positivity in my life so here we go with todays gratitudes!


1. Marcys comment today made me grateful that there are still really positive people out there. Marcy pulled me up on a bad perception. I was saying what tutors said to me about me and she reminded me that its really a good thing that they have the nerve to say it to my face. It shows that they must respect me or they would say it behind my back instead. You are always meaner to the people you love and your friends because they know they are you friends but your always super friendly to those that you dont like that much or know that well. So thanks marcy. Good life insight and I'm grateful you corrected my negative outlook.

2. I had a chat with Gill about life today and it was nice to just lay out how I felt about the uncertainty of my future. I explained to her that I don't really care what I do straight out of uni. My dream was to move overseas and just do something. I don't see why I should give up on that dream now that its just me, it will just be harder with more challenges. She told me off for putting myself down which I really appreciate. I need to be pulled up on it because most of the time I don't even notice I'm doing it. So i'm grateful for our chat. Its good to know that one of my mums friends supports my conscious decision of not wanting to know what to do for a while.

3. I'm grateful that simone today reminded me that I am not myself at the moment and havn't been for this month at all. It helps hearing this constantly as a reminder that I wont feel this terrible forever. I will get my old self back and I will find happiness again. She pointed out that I have become the biggest introvert since this all and that it's not who I am and I will get back to being me again. And I know shes right. I just need a huge change and thrown into the deep end of something and i'll find my way and my self confidence knowing that I did it by myself.

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So I will txt my nan.

Things I achieved: Went to breakfast with mum, nan and jill, Decided on a loose date I want to travel and the route I will take, had a shower, did a food shop, went to uni, did some work at uni, had a really good chat with Marcy, havn't cried today (really stoked with that one).

Also I feel this needs to be said but I found it really easy today to name my gratitudes even whilst i'm feeling really dark so yay go me!